“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside of you”.
What a wise, wise woman. A woman who lived her life unapologetically. A woman who lived her own truth. A woman who had the power to stand alone and in turn, impact the world.
A strong woman, whose soul had a purpose far greater than she could have ever imagined.
Whether fighting for civil rights or women’s rights; facing her demons, and sharing her triumphs with the world was her power.
Her divine feminine power.
I have always been inspired by her daring nature. A nature which dared her to share for her, in a world who didn’t always love her back.
I question whether this is the challenge I have to face in my own life.
As a creative, my urge for self-expression is as strong as my urge to eat. Any of my work whether through film, audio or written is a piece of me. It comes from within, it has a life of its own.
My work is an extension of myself, laying there like a slab of raw meat awaiting the heat of your gaze. I live for it. The anxiety after every post, every publish, every piece.
This truth has always existed in me. Quietly hidden away within my womb space waiting to be birthed. Through living my life by my own rules, I have been lucky enough to stand within this truth and address this creative entity. I have followed the flow of life, never questioning the why and how of my urge within to move, change or express.
It eventually lead me to my true calling. I fought tirelessly with every teacher, every boss, every bully, to express myself freely. No to be controlled or coerced. I fought tirelessly for my opinions, to not be minimised by any man or any member of authority completely invested within this illusion of physical life.
When you are living your soul purpose, you realise, there is no physical life, there is just purpose, presence, expression and emotion.
This is now my new reality.
Beating to the beat of my own drum. I am a happy, optimist. Some may say fairly naïve, but I am also free.
As a highly sensitive being who feels everything, living this life can be difficult. I fight with the urge to fly away and escape my problems, trying not to stay present in the pain and hurt. The weeping of my inner child pulls at me from the inside to do what has always felt natural…….run.
But now I realize, like Maya Angelou, every experience is a teacher, every emotion helps to fully immerse you and be present in the moment and within every pain is an untold story, an entity bigger than you that once you birth it, you to could be a free woman.